UPDATE SEPT 2009

So it’s been a long long while since I’ve been on here I guess I should just start where I last left off with my blogs. I’m still going to school, still want to be a cop, group is basically just me, Jake, Sarah, and Chris now, and that old girl I cared about is long gone and out of my life. Update promotions are coming up at RFC and let’s hope I get a promotion. I met this new girl Megan Hulen a month ago. we really hit it off fast and in about 3 weeks we were boyfriend and girlfriend we had a great part so far and then a couple of days ago things went all bad now things might not work out and sadly after I have tried my best and everything to be with her things might not work out. I really want this to work out I really care about her; I just wish that she knew how much she means to me. I really feel like I failed here and I just wish that things would go back to the way things were with us. We will see if things work out with us.

Neverending Hope For My Dreams

Lately I have been wondering what my hopes and dreams are and I have finally come up with a list:

• I want to be an LAPD Police Officer I want to be a sergent or a detective when I retire after 20-30 years of service. I would like to be part of Narcotics, Gang Unit, K-9, or SWAT either one would be fine but its a lot of work but I can do it I know I can.
• I would like to become either a public speaker or teacher of law enforcement or pursue my voice over career or something like that.
• I want my friends of "The New Group" aka the Fab Seven (Jake, Chris, Bryan, Sarah, Renee, Marisa, and Me) to stay together for a while and I would like things to work out for everyone in this group.
• I want to get back in shape I wanna have a full on athletic body for the first time in my life I wanna lose 30 pounds of fat and gain 30 pounds of muscle so its gonna be a tough road ahead but it can happen.
• I wanna finish my AA in Liberal Arts by next year.
• I wanna get a more economical car (Scion XB, Nissan Versa, or Mini Cooper).
• I want to get a new laptop .
• I wanna show my parents that I am a responcible person and that they should not baby me so much and let me live my life the way I want to.
• I don't want the person that I like to forget about me while she is out of state and when she comes back I would like to try and start dating and create a relationship with this person because we have so much in common and we understand eachother and I cant find a single flaw about this person at all.
• I want to be married by the age of 26-28 and have kids by 30-33 i would like to have either 2 to 3 kids and have a nice house by then to have my family to live in.

Lets hope that at least half of these Hopes and Dreams of mine come true and that it will give my life that much more meaning.

Again.....

This whole week has been a tough one for me. I have worked for almost 7 days straight, me and my parents are fighting, the girl I want to be with is moving away, and now I have to worry about what direction my future is going to head in. As of right now I know that I want to become an LAPD Police Officer but where I want to end up in is undecided. The girl I like has to move back out of the state and about 8 hours and 487 miles away from me. The sad thing is its been a long long time since I have been able to find a girl who I have felt a connection with like this one. She is a little dark and intimidating and I like it cause I myself am a dark person. This girl has really brought happiness into my life recently and I hope that she never forgets about me cause I will never forget about her. We have both wanted to kiss but didn't cause of the pain that it would cause when we said good bye. I just really miss starring into those big beautiful brown eyes that seem to be filled with life. My parents and I are fighting because of all the stress of who I owe money to and such but also because I would like to buy a handgun on my 21st birthday, so I can start training for the shooting coarse of the LAPD Training Academy. I also need to start to push myself more in becoming a better person for me and for others. I also need to get in shape ASAP. There is so much that is going on for me now but all i seem to care about is the thought that I never get to see her again. I hope I get to see her again and one day maybe something might happen.....